From a collection of letters I've written, an example of happiness rebellion. This was just as I began speaking the word Autism out loud, four years ago.
Dear Max and Ty,
I should just tell you a funny story to lighten the mood.
The other day I took you down town to the library to check out some books. You both usually stay in your stroller because if I ever turned you loose, I'd be chasing you to no end. This time was different. We happened to show up just as story time was starting. Although I considered skipping it when I realized that your stroller would not fit through the doorway to get to the children's room, I figured that it was as good of a time as any to give story time a go.
I parked our Double Baby Buggy, unharnessed you, my little balls of energy, and sent you both in the room. All of the other children were seated nicely on a bright carpet, but the sheer excitement of it all prevented you both from being able to settle down. The wiggling began. The happy exploration when you were supposed to be still. The playful words when all the other children were quiet.
You know the other Mother's there were absolutely horrified that the two of you refused to sit and stay? I immediately started getting dirty looks from them as well as the seriously uptight librarian. I tried in vain to convince you guys to be seated but let's face it, some days I am in charge and other days, the dynamic duo that you are, overpowers me. Most days actually.
Well, the librarian was losing her cool fast. At one point she stood up and tried to scold you both for not sitting nicely like the other children. As she got out of her chair and told you both to "Sit down!" Ty, you snuck behind her back and sat right down in her chair! The room erupted in laughter at that point, and she asked us to leave.
That's right, we got kicked out of the library!
I cried at first, then I wisely changed my mind and I laughed and laughed! I don't ever want you to be nice and quiet and calm just because some crazy adults wants you to.
I want you to be you, and only you.
Don't ever let some thing like getting kicked out of story time, or someone who prefers order over enthusiasm damper your shining spirits!
I love you my wonderful boys,